Thinking...

I have been thinking a lot lately about a lot of things...Sounds funny I know but that is one of the reasons I love this blog, I can get my thoughts out on paper (well at least in front of me sort of) and some how it always makes me feel better.

Jaiden is growing up WAY to fast. Now when I ask him to do something he tells me, "Mommy, just one minute." Yes it is cute but I am sure he really understands what that means because he wants to finish whatever he is doing and then we can go or do what we need to do. Very sad to see that he is almost 3 and growing up so much.

Work is work and of course there is not much right now with the way the economy is that I can do about that. I just have to come to realize that it takes more to be negative than it does to be positive, so I try and do my best and chuck my tired unhappy attitude at the door and get done what I need to get done during my 8 hours here at this desk.

Marriage is WORK. No one ever told me it was going to be easy so I never thought that; but it is a lot of work to remain calm in all parts of a marriage and a family. Marriage is everything I wanted it to be and more, I love Dusty with all of my heart and I am so glad we are together each and every day of our lives and if we go a day without seeing each other because of work or other things it just seems odd, but we are two different people and we do have some different views on things! Just workin thru it. We will make it, I am not worried just takes time.

Family - now that is a whole different subject. I love our family of 3. Do I want one day for it to be a family of 4 - YES I do - is it time right now, only God knows that and when it is His time it will be right. I love that Dusty and I have created such an amazing little guy in Jaiden. He does have parts of both of us that is for sure. I love to plan things for the three of us to do, along with other family or even alone. We are going camping this weekend with Dusty's sister and her family and I can not wait. Jaiden loves to be with his cousins. On the other side of that, I love to do things just the 3 of us. I know Jaiden loves to spend time with mommy and daddy.

Money - WOW where do I begin. I truly believe that it is the root of all evil. No matter what you do, you always NEED it for the most part. The only thing that is really free to do is breathe air. Even taking Jaiden to the park costs us gas to get there, ya know what I mean. We do the best we can with what we have and we will make it, I just hate that everything we need or want costs us money. And then of course there are the unexpected items that come up that you have to take care also.

Friends. That is something that I am so incredibly THANKFUL for. I would not ask for better friends. I have the most amazing best friend in the world. We talk almost every day and I would not change that for the world. I know that I can turn to her for anything. I am so thankful that God has given me the friends that I have in my life. At one point I never really knew why I was in the places I am until I made a friend or someone or something impacted my life and then it hit me, THIS is why God has me here. I have met great friends from work, which as you all know is a place I do not want to be. I am so thankful that God placed me in the building for this time in my life. It is amazing the people that have come in and out of my life just because of work. I know that the two friends I have in my life now because of work are amazing. We recently spent a weekend in Vegas together and it was such a great trip. No stress, no fighting, no arguing. Overall it was just a nice trip. I know that God will take care of me and the people that he brings in and out of my life and truly I am so blessed.

All in all I have nothing to complain about in my life. I love my family and my friends and I am SO thankful to have a job even if it is not one that I really care for at the present time in my life. I know like I said there is a reason I am here and even if I don't know why now, God does and that is all that matters.